As one of many hundreds of 'Partners' belonging to a MASSIVE UK internet shopping site, I was asked if I had any interesting stories about overcoming adversity to start my business. Was my business inspired by a redundancy or perhaps defeating cancer or something like that. I offered a couple of sentences regarding my story, however, I don't expect for them to follow it up. It's just too strange, too different. Not enough people can relate.
The other day my friend mentioned that she thought it odd that I never play the Sick Card. Honestly, it's both denial and also not wanting to live life dictated by illness. Although I have overcome the biggest obstacles regarding it, I will always deal with the aftermath. I will never be 'normal.' I will always have 'a problem.' I will always have to carry my medical kit and the fear that it could go terribly wrong again.
I remember when I was 15 and trying to get through high school. This was when my illness began to rear its ugly head. My teachers were calling my parents asking what was wrong with me. During that time, the wife of one of my teachers was diagnosed with cancer. We both fell ill about the same time. We were both in and out of hospital. We both looked pale whilst putting brave faces on a bad scene. She died. I didn't. And I remember her husband looking at me and what I read in his eyes was unmistakable. Why her and why not me? Really, it's only natural that he should think this. After all, I was only an annoying teenager that could draw. She had sons. She lead a Sunday school class. She was a leader in the church. After that, he never did give me eye contact.
I sometimes wonder if he were to look in on my life now, would he think it worth God's decision to save me and not her?
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